Things seem to sorting themselves..

Well I have to say that I think things are, finally, slotting into place..

Work wise I'm pretty convinced now that I will be offering the guys to buy as many shares as they can buy off my wife. That will hopefully give my wife some decent money to enable her to at least feel free from the company and do something at least.. I will also feel that I am allowing they guys to buy in, thus I feel as if I am delivering on an unspoken promise. Further, it gives time for the market to recover (credit crunch, no cash anywhere, worldwide recession) and for the company to grow - something which I think is entirely doable.

Personally - well.. I was exhausted over the last week and put this down to; overdoing it at the gym, being in a spin about the company and what I should do, consecutive late nights (I.e. not enough sleep) as well as supporting my wife as she works through the core stuff of her therapy.. really that is quite a lot.

I still fear getting it wrong, but confidence is, I think, continuing to grow.

I spoke for about 45 minutes to my mum last night which went ok. I was honest, the most honest I've ever been with her - about dad and about her. About me, therapy etc. I've agreed to meet with her so will see how that goes. My wife said that I still had a strange tone when I spoke to her, which I think must be because I'm still trying to stay in control. I think I am successful if I don't show any emotion. So, when I meet her, I must not be afraid to show my anger, frustration, emotions etc... that will be a test

What I need to ensure I do not do is that I think I have "got it wrong". In other words when I realise that there is an area for me to improve in, or my wife points something out, my insides try to tie themselves into a knot. NO says I, polo mints, this does not mean I am wrong, and bad and evil..!!!