A bit tired, need some space..

I've had my youngest sister and fiancee staying over the last two days. Normally I would have shut myself off, not being able to spend time with my sister. However, the last two days have been different. I've not been as needing to hide away, as I've not felt the same need to fix, take responsibility.. which has been great. [That's not to say however that it wasn't still there, talking it over with my wife since it's clear that I still had an agenda when I spoke with her fiancée for example]

However, after two late nights, two days with them, and the gym yesterday where I deliberately pushed it I am feeling a little jaded. Nowhere near the same as before. But, I feel like I need some time to reflect, space to recharge.

And that's ok. That does not mean I'm descending into a pit of bleargness. Just that, I need some time to recharge and recoup. Reflect, think, space, rest.. Writing this blog in an opportunity to do that. Listening to Keane too - feed my soul. Time with just my wife where I don't feel I need to give her something.

Rest. Turn off. Relax. Contemplate. Just be me..

[And today, a day later, I realise that I've not needed to escape in the same way as the past. Listen to music, yes, write a short story, yes, read up on the latest news, yes, but not switch off. Not look at porn, or go on the xbox, not feel I need to escape from my wife etc. - which is great!]