Ramifications of entrapment

So, a week later and how am I doing? The realisation that I felt as trapped by my wife as I did my mum was such a shock. When my therapist asked me yesterday how I was feeling, or where I was feeling it I said throughout my entire body.

As if it was a major trauma. In fact it reminds me of when I was a young boy (around 5) watching a film with some older boys/girls. A man in Africa whilst asleep had the lower portion of his leg chopped off (gangrene?) - and ever since my left lower leg feels "funny" whenever blood/gore etc is talked about.

That's what I could feel when I sat with my therapist. A very strong sensation.

I realised that not only had my dad been a crap father, but my mother had been a crap mum. Great. Crap parents when I was born, crap as I was growing up, crap when I left home, crap when I got married, crap when I had my own children, crap as they were growing up, crap now. All in all, crap.