Exhaustion

Well. I'm washed out again. Mentally and even emotionally I feel ok. In fact for the end part of the week I'd felt really good. But then two days ago I started to feel really exhausted, as if I needed to sleep all the time. I couldn't work it out. We skipped visiting family and seeing Blackpool illuminations for that reason. Skipped seeing family today too.

I feel like I've undertaken a two year tour of Afghanistan. I've got back home and now I'm feeling the full effects of the traumas I underwent there. It's like my body wants to shut down whilst it recovers.

So I look back at what I've done over the last few weeks (and years!). Two weeks ago was a major thing - seeing how trapped I felt by my mum. YURHFHCH! The feeling was so strong, that to remain with my wife took some effort. Real emotional deep guts type. And I think that that, as well as the impact of my life has left me feeling utterly wasted.

And I'm trying to listen to my body. And it's saying it's tired. So don't do anything taxing like driving a long way. Seeing lots of people...

And be nice to myself. Take it easy. Thank you Lord for an understanding wife.