How to ensure we are being nurtured - and God

So - in order to ensure we don't spend the rest of our lives rescuing and being exhausted - we need to ensure we are being fed.

"Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of the Lord". Trouble is, is this it? Clearly not in the meaning we as well intentioned christians mean it. Otherwise we would not go to work, would not eat normal food etc. There would be no hobbies, no excercise, no watching TV, reading or anything else that wasn't 100% full on spiritual.

So - how do we ensure we are being nurtured and fed more than we are giving out.

For starters -we need to look at ourselves and make ourselves a priority. Jesus did this - he did NOT spend all of his time with people. They were too exhausting, took too much from him. No, instead her would withdraw from the crowds, go to lonely places, deserts, mountain tops, river walks, fields, back of gardens, roof tops, attics.. he knew he needed to feed his body, soul and spirit.

How much are Caroline and I doing this?

We need to think about it, plan for it, prioritise this. This includes not only leisure (such as hobbies, interests), but friendships (like making new ones which nurture us too), but also God. We currently are floating - not able to find a church for us. We are not spending time with God.

So here I am - watching/listening to GOD TV with the Florida Healing Outpouring. Apparently a revival is breaking out there. i've been listening to 15 minutes or so of workship - and he's onto his second song. The immediate difference between this and other worship sessions is a) they don't reallly care how they sound and b) they want to meet with God. They are singing songs like "God meet with me". "God set us free". "God come and visit us". Encouraging the congragation of some 750-1250 (hard to tell) to lay their souls bare before God. Waiting in worship, pushing in past the veil. An expecatation that they are there to worship a living God - and are willing to push and press in to do so.

And my heart? My heart is moved - whilst at the same time I feel parts of me saying "now watch yourself, don't get sucked into man". And that's such a difficult thing. Because anything that God does with man is therefore tainted by man. It can't be helped. So - how to find and meet with God in the middle of fallible humans like me... cos whatever I may thing, I am no different to anyone else.

"Waves of mercy, would you come down and drown me, all of heaven, waves of mercy, fall down over me. All of my weeping and mourning, turn to rejoicing (just praise him tonight, you are worthy oh God).. "