Wednesday, 18 June 2008

How much can change in 24 hours (wife)


So, there I was, suffering whilst my wife was feeling hurt and barricading herself in her bunker. She wasn't able to talk to me because I'd hurt her so much. I was leaving her to it, waiting for her to come out and talk to me - making the first move. It was very difficult, very painful. She was answering direct questions - but not relating to me in any other way. It was pressing my big red button called rejection. But I had to sweat it out.

Almost a week later, I dropped my wife off at her therapist's. Afterwards we went for a 30 minute drink (not something I wanted to do, as I wanted her to make the first move, but there you go), and she asked me "so what do you propose we do about our relationship?". I stated that I felt that we were pressing each other's buttons, she'd retreated into her bunker as I'd hurt her by not connecting after fantastic love making some 10 days earlier. She said that she was torn 50/50 as to whether one of us needed to move out to give each of us some space. She stated that friends had recommended we go out for a date, to which she had replied why would anyone be so mean? And she meant it. And it cut to my heart. Again, very painful and I had to fight hard to hold back the tears. She also found that when I was trying to help her I was being bossy and abusive.

So, we carried on talking, and agreed that we would give each other a bit more space. But that we would also try spending a certain amount of time together to ensure we connected at least at some level. I told her that I was really attracted to her and liked her.

We got home, and everything was different. Phew! We went out for a walk. She showed me some affection. I even told her I wanted to make love to her that night - which we ended up doing!!! Since she's shown me more affection in the last 24 hours that I feel I've received in the last 5 years!!!!!

So - on that front all good!

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