God's will is like a tree..

So, here's the deal. I was brought up in a home and church where there was a strong call to follow God's will. And there's nothing I'd rather do. It's as if within me there is a deep and powerful current wanting to follow God's will. At all costs.

However - what is God's will? I spent the first 15 years of my adult life trying to follow God's will in terms of full time ministry within a church. And I have to say I was the most frustrated man. Once I got to the end of the 15 years I realised that I was missing something. Maybe God wasn't wanting me to go into full time ministry - so I started my company.

But deep down I think that that strong undercurrent is still running - robbing me of peace and joy. I feel that I should be seeing many people converted, healed - in full time God work. So how can I rest? Well - I'm sure there's more to follow on this subject.

But, following on from my previous post about a double bind, I was thinking this through when I saw a tree in our front garden. And the thought struck me - which branch is correct? Is it the one that grows left, or right? The answer of course is that every branch grows towards the light (God) and is connected to the stump (vine). So there is no wrong branch. And in fact each branch branches again and again and again.



So it is with the Lord's will. There is no one will. Despite what I've been taught or chosen to believe. I felt that God's will was like the eye of a needle. Impossible to get through but I still had to try. This despite the fact that I know that I am a Christian because of Jesus did for me (grace) rather than my own works (law). Yet, there it is. I feel like I've been trying to squeeze between two very large steel plates that only has a 1/2" gap between them. The steel plates are cold, unforgiving and hard.

But, thanks and praise to God, His will is not like that. It's not like trying to pass through an eye of a needle, but it's like a tree. Which grows towards the light, left or right, it doesn't matter. There's choice, freedom.. grace I guess.

Now that's another revelation that I need to ponder for some time..!