OK - I'm fighting..

Ok - hot on the list of yesterday.. thinking about it more last night, and whilst sleeping, and this morning.. And being encouraged to fight from the book mentioned yesterday, I'm going to fight .

As I was reading this morning I was struck by a number of things; (Matthew 9).

1. The lady with the issue of blood for 12 years pushed through that she may only touch His garment to be healed
2. The ruler's daughter who had died, but whom Jesus raised back to life
3. The lady with the bleeding, that despite the fact that Jesus was on a mission that did not put her off, and Jesus had the time and compassion to address/heal her
4. Two blind people followed Jesus crying out to Him to be healed

Now hears the thing. All of these people went to Jesus, Jesus did not come to them. (Ok theologically He did, but you know what I mean). They went to Him. Out of their desperation. They were desperate. They had tried everything. The woman had used all her life's savings. How often do we do everything bar go to the One who has the answer? The doctors, change our diet, psychotherapy, dietitian, gym, life coaching, reading, research in the internet, push more, strive more... and we don't take our daily bread, and drink the daily living water. We forget that we are a branch in the vine. That without Him we can do nothing.

So here's what I am going to do. I started well, I now need to continue.

I need to try and gain a daily time with God. Where I read the Bible, meditate, worship and pray. And I need to fight for this. He is my answer. He is my life. He is my strength. He is my joy. He is my peace. He is my redeemer, my comforter, my counsellor, my high tower, my light to my path, my guide, my saviour, my companion, my friend on the journey, my trusty mate, my confident, my greatest champion, my mentor/coach, my leader, my soul buddy, my spiritual father, my carer, my reason for living. He is my passion, my love, my delight. He is all I need.

And here's the hit list. My flow of blood, my blindness, my death;

1. My history/past which causes me to act as I do today
2. My false self, my alter ego, that which I've built up to protect me from the hurts of the past and current
3. My wife - that she may continue to move into life in all it's fullness
4. daughter 1&2 - that they may continue to grow up into the beauty that they are, whilst being totally encapsulated by the Lord's beauty
5. The rest of the balance list..

God, Heavenly Father, I bring these areas to You. You love me, died for me, created me. You care more about me than I can possible understand. But I want to fight with your truth, your spirit. God, Father, in Jesus' name I stand upon the truth of your word, the blood you shed, the truth about me. I believe in You. Deliver me, heal me, restore me. And the same for my wife and daughters. In Jesus name..